It is what it is

If you reconsider the purpose of a martial art, then it is worth asking whether or not your own training reflects this.
A performer can learn to dance.
A sports person may play tennis.
A 'feel good' person may take a walk in the country.

Martial arts training is concerned with something else.
Many well-meaning instructors have twisted the nature of martial arts practice into something else.
They accommodate.
They compromise.
And somewhere along the way the true nature of the art is forgotten.

Why did martial artists learn to use a sword in 16th Century Japan?
Because it was the weapon of choice.
It was a necessary survival skill.

What weapons are you carrying today?
In the UK you are not allowed to carry any weapons.
Your arsenal of improvised weapons is also pretty limited.